A New Kind Of Love

I consider myself to be a straight male. Even though I have seen a couple of dudes I would consider pretty. More feminine not so much masculine. Ten years ago I found myself looking at some stuff of an adult nature on the Internet, and came across some "Shemale" porn. A new and interesting world was opened to me. The title of this piece is not referring to the porn itself but of a particular girl I came across. Fast forward to a couple of years ago I found a girl who I was attracted to instantly. She is a transgender woman, the proper term for a male who has transitioned into a female. I didn't know I would be so into her. Don't get me wrong I have found some trans-women attractive before but not to this degree. Blonde, tall, great face, great butt, and she is European. Great combination for any type of woman.

I ended up finding her on twitter. I struck up a conversation with her. Things are going smooth. She adds me on facebook. She tells me she thinks I am attractive. I thought that would be the extent of the relationship. Just an online rapport and that’s it. But to my surprise she wanted to meet. I obliged and the date was set. Let me tell you I was nervous as a man could be. We ended up going to Chic-fil-a and then back to her place. I would like to tell you some interesting sex story but that didn’t happen. We ate and watched a movie. I left shortly after the end. We hung out a few more times. Only a couple of those times did I spend the night. Still I didn’t make any moves. She may have been getting frustrated with me. But I have never been with a Trans-woman before. Wasn't sure what to do with the equipment. 

As I got to know her I became more and more infatuated with her. She is a breath of fresh air. Since she isn't from the US she doesn't have the same mentality. She is French. She was very innocent. So much so that some people took her kindness for weakness and took advantage of her. I didn't want to be that type of person in her life. I wanted and did treat her with the respect she deserves. I found myself thinking about her all the time. I have never felt this way about anyone. My nerves got the better of me. We ended up having a conversation about our relationship. She was into me but she stated that since I wasn't showing interest in her that her feelings were starting to fade. Of course we get into all this a week or so before she heads back to France. 

I officially fucked that relationship up. I still have it bad for her. I am afraid that we will only be "just friends". I have to get over that nervous feeling she gives me. Take the first step and win her heart. Maybe one day it will happen. Who knows? I guess only time will tell.