I consider myself to be a straight male. Even
though I have seen a couple of dudes I would consider pretty. More feminine not
so much masculine. Ten years ago I found myself looking at some stuff of an
adult nature on the Internet, and came across some "Shemale" porn. A
new and interesting world was opened to me. The title of this piece is not
referring to the porn itself but of a particular girl I came across. Fast
forward to a couple of years ago I found a girl who I was attracted to
instantly. She is a transgender woman, the proper term for a male who has
transitioned into a female. I didn't know I would be so into her. Don't get me
wrong I have found some trans-women attractive before but not to this degree.
Blonde, tall, great face, great butt, and she is European. Great combination
for any type of woman.
I ended up finding her on twitter. I struck up a
conversation with her. Things are going smooth. She adds me on facebook. She
tells me she thinks I am attractive. I thought that would be the extent of the
relationship. Just an online rapport and that’s it. But to my surprise she
wanted to meet. I obliged and the date was set. Let me tell you I was nervous
as a man could be. We ended up going to Chic-fil-a and then back to her place.
I would like to tell you some interesting sex story but that didn’t happen. We
ate and watched a movie. I left shortly after the end. We hung out a few more
times. Only a couple of those times did I spend the night. Still I didn’t make
any moves. She may have been getting frustrated with me. But I have never been
with a Trans-woman before. Wasn't sure what to do with the equipment.
As I got to know her I became more and more
infatuated with her. She is a breath of fresh air. Since she isn't from the US
she doesn't have the same mentality. She is French. She was very innocent. So
much so that some people took her kindness for weakness and took advantage of
her. I didn't want to be that type of person in her life. I wanted and did
treat her with the respect she deserves. I found myself thinking about her all
the time. I have never felt this way about anyone. My nerves got the better of
me. We ended up having a conversation about our relationship. She was into me
but she stated that since I wasn't showing interest in her that her feelings
were starting to fade. Of course we get into all this a week or so before she
heads back to France.
I officially fucked that relationship up. I still
have it bad for her. I am afraid that we will only be "just friends".
I have to get over that nervous feeling she gives me. Take the first step and
win her heart. Maybe one day it will happen. Who knows? I guess only time will
tell.
